The New Mom on the Block
I love being a mom more than I could have ever imagined.
Often times when I was pregnant, women would get this sweet sparkle in their
eye as they tried to explain the immense love a mother has for her child. I would always smile and express how excited
I was but kind of thought it was something women had to say to encourage the
next generation of mothers. As I am sure
the two of you actually reading this blog already know (thanks mom & dad),
I experienced this love six months ago when sweet Charlotte Susan was
born. I will spare you the details of
the birth story for the greater good of the world wide web and fast forward to
the part where I met my baby girl.
I jumped right up when she was born only to be loudly “instructed”
to lay back down as the placenta was still intact and Charlotte was of course
attached to it. I was ecstatic, elated, crying, and rejoicing for all to hear. I immediately held her close and covered her
beautiful slimy head with kisses telling her how perfect she was and how much I
loved her. I could sense the presence of the Holy Spirit in the room, it felt
like a cloud of peace and joy embraced us. It was such a humbling experience to
receive such a precious gift from God and being trusted to raise her in this
crazy world. I now understood the
motherly love that I had once viewed as some sort of fairy tale and my heart
was forever changed.
Next thing I know I am up all night with my screaming angel
begging for the nursery to silence my little miracle. I would let you know how
that first week went but I can barely remember it myself. I believe it was the
perfect combination of utter exhaustion and excitement. I was so thankful my parents were here our
first week home and for all the help from Eli’s parents the second week. I felt like I was getting the hang of it after
a few weeks and started Charlotte on a pretty good schedule. As I am sure most moms can attest getting in a
routine brings sanity to all members in the home (at one point I was even
expecting the pups to run away). I was definitely
a textbook new mom. I would fall asleep
researching parenting theories on the kindle and spent most of my social time
picking the brains of any mom within earshot. Going to the post office with the
baby would consume my entire day and I over packed for pretty much every
outing. I didn’t know what I was doing
but I did know I loved Charlotte with everything I had and she deserved a mom
that would give it her all. Now, fast forward to today and I am still your
textbook new mom who doesn’t know what she is doing but all those women were
right, I love this job more than I could have ever imagined. I praise the Lord daily for granting my desire to be a mom and am thankful for His guidance everyday! 
